I Feel So Deeply It Hurts Me

By Emmy Poppinga

What kills me will be myself

My soul is etched into my bones.

I ponder the day I lay in a grave

With all my thoughts, alone.

I am the words I have no words for

All my emotions, written on skin.

Sometimes I feel paper-thin

And I think I can’t feel anymore.

I feel so deeply it hurts me

Sit on my floor, thoughts abuzz

Disconcerted, my head to the wall.

I see the parts of me no one else does

And I love myself anyway, all.