Alway angry, always sad,
always worried, never glad.
There’s constantly a voice yelling in the back of my brain,
“You are so useless and such a pain.”
“What’s wrong?” someone asks.
“I’m fine, it’ll pass”
But what if it doesn’t, what if it sticks?
The clock chimes, it ticks and ticks.
“Keep yourself busy,” that’s what they say,
But what they really mean is “push your problems far, far away”
Athlete? Scholar? I don’t get to choose
Either way I fail, either way I lose.
Try, try, try, as hard as I can
I’m afraid to admit: I don’t have a plan.
I’m tired, nervous, anxious, and most of all confused
My emotions have been ignited, ignited like a fuse
All of these moods, bottled up for far too long,
“Just keep chugging, chugging along!”
All I want to do is yell and scream
I just want to wake up and find out this has all been a dream.
My biggest fear is failing, failing to succeed
Overwhelmed with jealousy, envy, and maybe even greed
All the pressure on young kids minds
How could everyone be so blind?
Rest assured, I know how you feel
You keep trying to tell yourself, “it’s not a big deal!”
You deserve a break, you need to rest
Just keep trying, trying your best
It’ll all work out, it’ll all be okay,
Things won’t always be this way.