logically — I am sane.
irrelevant and unimportant
insignificant
rationally — I am usual.
typical even, in most occupations
calm and refined
understanding of purpose,
of individuality,
of impact
but emotionally, dear,
emotionally — I am infinite.
I am crushed by everything I have done
and haven’t
everything I have made to exist and failed to create
I am nothing but my memory of the past and fear of the future
I am eternally afraid and eternally in love
forever alive forever dying forever asleep as I am awake
I am too much too much too much yet entirely too little
I am every word I have spoken when saying nothing at all
I am exhales and exhaust, intake and energy
I am every bit of skin I have touched and sun I have felt
I am the incomprehensible accumulation of everything I have ever known
I am saturation as I am disenchantment
why can’t I understand?
suppress
subjugate
compartmentalize
decide decide decide
control let go live fuller alleviate destroy become
unconfined.
no. stop, that’s not right?
logically — I am defined.
in body in blood in heart
logically — I am sane.
in mind in sound in humanity
but perhaps I am not logical.