i keep looking at photos
from the past
scrolling
up
up
up
trying to immerse myself in the memories
that were the best time of my life
meeting the seniors
football games
late nights at the theater
hand intertwining with new friends
the feelings that i felt
the smiles that i smiled
the laughter that i shared
now
my hands shake
my eyes water
my vision goes blurry
my head hurts
i know i’ll never have it back
yet
i keep looking at photos